HeyJaredWhat Was I Thinking? with Jensen McRae
If you're a fan of my music and wish I would yap EVEN MORE, you've come to the right place. Personal essays, cultural criticism, lists that are meant to inspire and amuse. For people for whom Everything is always "that deep."
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NO ONE EVER REALLY LEAVES YOU: Chapter 11 (opens the original)
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After another two days passed with zero contact from Anders, I started to accept that I had been ghosted. Perhaps “accept” wasn’t the right word, more that the creeping dread I felt at his lack of interest became the new normal. I did not feel Zen or at peace, but the constant anxiety became familiar. My sleep issue, which on a normal day had me falling asleep at three or four in the morning, became a full-on crisis, and I could bank on staying up through the night at least once per week. Occasi
The John Green Essay (opens the original)
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Do you mind if I start at the beginning?When I was 15 years old I had my first depressive episode. I didn’t know it was a depressive episode, probably because I’d never had one before. But over the course of my sophomore year of high school I was basically sad every day. I was sad in a way that could not be attributed to anything, sad in a way that infected every aspect of my life. I gained a lot of weight. I couldn’t remember anything I read, which meant that the subjects in which I’d always th
Why Doesn't Anyone Know What They Look Like? (opens the original)
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When I was sixteen I ran for a student council position at my high school and won. This victory was utterly incongruous with my previous experiences as a teenager. I was adversarial, insecure, and opinionated to a fault. But I also possessed supreme confidence in my intellect and sense of humor. So when I decided to run for office, instead of focusing on what tended to being victory for the girls (sometimes Being A Cheerleader, sometimes by offering a less antagonistic variation on the Tracy Fli
NO ONE EVER REALLY LEAVES YOU: Chapter 10 (opens the original)
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Reuben started copywriting for a perfumery in Larchmont that offered a monthly class for novices. When they offered him free entry to the class for him and a guest, I was the first person he called. Apparently Drew had a “highly sensitive nose.” The theme for the class we went to was Scents of Self, which we spent the entire car ride laughing about, and the goal was to make a custom fragrance that tapped into the essence of who we were as people. It was being held on a Monday night, and that par
NO ONE EVER REALLY LEAVES YOU: Chapter 9 (opens the original)
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Anders started asking me questions about my young new client, and I didn’t feel like lying to him right off the bat, so I distracted him by taking off my clothes. In a rare occurrence, he had come to… Read more
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