HeyJaredThe Blue Collar Buddha Podcast
I’m Chase Murphy. I didn’t set out to make a podcast—I needed to say what I couldn’t say out loud. What started as survival became something deeper: a space for unfiltered truth. No scripts. No edits.
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What If You Just Let Yourself Like the Person You’ve Been Running From? (opens the original)
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I spent most of my life believing I was the problem. I felt like I didn’t fit. I felt broken. I felt like the parts of myself that should have been accepted were the exact parts that pushed people away. I had four divorces. Four DUIs. I lost my infant son Malachi on July 31st, 1999. And I carried the belief that his death was punishment for who I was. But eventually I realized something that changed the entire conversation: I had spent my whole life trying to get love from outside myself while n
Sunday Stroll 09 | Stop Waiting for Permission to Be Loved for Who You Are (opens the original)
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I spent years believing my history made me harder to love. Not because someone sat me down and told me that. I built that belief myself. I took every mistake, every loss, every failure, and every painful moment and used them as evidence against myself. When my infant son Malachi died in 1999, I believed it was punishment. I believed something about me was so wrong that this was the consequence. But years later, the question that started changing everything was not: “Why did this happen?” The har
Confession | I Used to Think I Was Too Broken to Be Loved (opens the original)
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I recorded this confession on July 28th, 2026 with no intro music. I am 60. Parental abuse, four divorces, four DUIs, the death of my infant son. I abandoned myself for decades because taking care of myself felt selfish. I finally learned to like myself, then to love myself. Only after that did Sharon show up. The archive was born during her cancers. This episode includes my own song, “You Love My Scars,” written from the man who thought he was too broken to be loved. The free book Kick Rocks is
Episode 56 | Finding Your Groove: From Hotel BMW to Loving the Constant Variable. Me. (opens the original)
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I tackle the brutal necessity of personal accountability and self-inquiry, contrasting the illusion of external victimhood with the reality of choice. Drawing on raw memories of four divorces, multiple DUIs, and spending three months living in a car (”Hotel BMW”) with my wife despite having income, I expose how destructive mental loops trap us in cycles of suffering. The core message cuts through the noise: instead of trying to control everyone and everything else, you have to sit down, face the
Episode 55 | Steroids and Spirituality: The Illusion of Shortcuts and the Literal "Weight" We Carry (opens the original)
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I explore the parallels between physical bodybuilding and modern spiritual consumerism, exposing how both serve as external band-aids for a deep-seated fear of being unlovable. Triggered by a documentary on bodybuilder Rich Piana, I unpack my own history of chasing physical mass at Los Campiones in Minneapolis to quiet a sense of shame, and draw a hard line against the hollow, quantum-babble wellness industry that promises transformation without inner work. The breakthrough isn’t about finding a
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