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self awareness sucks (unfortunately.) is a podcast about realising things about yourself and then being unable to un-realise them.Hosted by Lisa Cosham, this is for overthinkers, people who have “done the work”, and anyone exhausted by constantly checking themselves.
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why self awareness is worth it (opens the original)
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This is the one I promised you in episode one. Eighteen episodes ago I asked why self-awareness sucks. This is where I answer whether it was worth it anyway. I go back through the whole season, not as a summary, but as a story. What changed. What it cost. And what I found on the other side. I also finally say the thing I wasn't ready to say in episode eleven. And I report back on the thing I said I was gripping in episode thirteen. People have literally just always been people. And you are not a
the self awareness paradox (opens the original)
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Self-awareness is supposed to help. So why does it sometimes make everything harder? This episode names seven paradoxes nested inside that one central problem. Some of them you'll recognise immediately. Some of them might create a new one just by being named. That's kind of the point. This is episode seventeen. One away from the end. And it's the one that explains why the journey was always going to feel like this.
let yourself be misunderstood (opens the original)
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This episode is about music. But not really about music. It's about the year six booklet that sent my nervous system into a full risk assessment. The Rebecca Ferguson concert that ended in dismissal. The Five Seconds of Summer song I sent at university and the response I genuinely didn't know what to do with. Discovering Billie Eilish and Ren before anyone was talking about them. And what it costs to keep the things you love in a smaller space than they deserve. The pre-editing. The managed reve
context changes everything (opens the original)
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The words weren't the problem. The context was. This episode is about connotation, denotation, semantic satiation, and why the same word can mean completely different things depending on who's holding it. It's also about the words from school, fat, ugly, weird, boring, and why they weren't inherently catastrophic. The context made them that way. And contexts can change. That's the whole point.
the parasocial trap (opens the original)
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You feel like you know them. They don't know you exist. This episode is about parasocial relationships, what they are, why they're not new, and what happens when you find yourself on both sides of one simultaneously. It's also about online dating, the 2019 beauty community implosion, being recognised from a video I'd completely forgotten making, and what it felt like to post on YouTube at sixteen. And it's about what these one-sided relationships have actually given me. Because the answer isn't
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