HeyJaredLove Is Never Wasted
I am a survivor of organized abuse and mind control programming. I write about my experiences in MK Ultra, SRA, and being trafficked as a child. Love is never wasted for its value does not rest in its reciprocity.
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At the Bottom of the Pool (opens the original)
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Content Warning: this post contains graphic descriptions of child abuse which might illicit a strong or potentially harmful emotional response. Please consult a support person if you find yourself triggered by this content.MKUltra psychic mind control is used to control survivors and members of the general population. Most MKUltra survivors receive psychic training as children so they can be controlled later in life by psychic projection, psychic suggestion, and triggers placed in the survivor’s
The Unseen Survivor (opens the original)
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I think one of the hardest things to overcome in surviving ritual abuse is feeling not seen. Parents that abused us definitely didn’t see us. They used us for their own gratification. How could they possibly understand who we are and what we need? When we beg for them to see us, show them our grief of feeling unseen, we are met with blame and derision. More of the same. It’s easy to fall into a cycle of seeking approval from an abusive parent. We try again and again to prove our worth, but still
Bear Training (opens the original)
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Content Warning: this post contains graphic descriptions of child abuse which might illicit a strong or potentially harmful emotional response. Please consult a support person if you find yourself triggered by this content.At camp was where I was trafficked to high-ranking government officials. I called it the camp in my mind to soften what it really was: a private, remote retreat where children in the program could be custom trafficked to important clients discretely. These important clients wo
Political Asylum for Former Child Sex Slaves (opens the original)
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International attention is growing for how the U.S. Administration is failing to conduct any investigation into the global criminal network uncovered by the Epstein files. The criminal activity being suppressed includes child sex trafficking, money laundering, drug and labor trafficking, blackmail, and indicates that institutions and world leaders have compromised their integrity and values in service of criminal enterprise. Foreign governments should know that not only is the DOJ failing to inv
On Being Far Away (opens the original)
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The best advice I ever got for surviving cult abuse came when I was six-years old. One of my perpetrators, a young man from the Navy base where I was being trafficked, said to me, “When you grow up, get as far away from this place as you can.” I remember his words for what he didn’t say. He didn’t say hold them accountable. He didn’t say try to get justice. He simply said get away. Because, at the end of the day, that’s all that matters. Get away physically, mentally, or spiritually. Get away, h
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