HeyJaredLike Thread Through a Needle
Sharing words about the loss of my daughter, one year to the day after I wrote them.
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9/27/25 (opens the original)
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We came down for the weekend to see family. I’m feeling guilty about not being here more as my mom is declining with dementia.It can be hard to be here. It’s hard for S and he vocalizes it often. Hard to be a cousin and grandson by himself. Missing his sister and the buffer she used to provide. I really feel for him.Hard to hang out like everything is normal. People don’t mention her much. Hard.One of the most painful things is thinking about how her choices impacted other people. Our young niec
9/25/25 (opens the original)
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I had a good day at work. I was riding a little high on the way home, feeling like I’m learning and getting more confident at the new job. I listened to music all the way home, going through my liked songs list. I got to songs from Brat, which I would have added to my playlist the summer of 2024, right as I pulled into the garage. I thought about Brat summer, how it was just last summer, how that’s when she went to Colorado, and she picked out a neon green bike helmet. Brat green, we said. I fel
9/24/25 (opens the original)
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Posted on facebook:Thank you for the birthday wishes! I had a good day at work and then N.ate took me to Virtue and we ate delicious food. Cheers to another trip around the sun and surviving the worst year of my life with my best friend by my side. I’ve always liked my birthday and I still do.<source
9/22/25 (opens the original)
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Today with Amy I talked about how I have been struggling at the new job, dreading going in. We talked about the different layers. The imposter syndrome, feeling like a dumb dumb who doesn’t know anything and that I’m not measuring up. She basically told me to suck it up, this is the unavoidable phase of awkwardness and insecurity at the beginning of learning anything and that only time would help. Which I know. The other hard part is the awkwardness of giving people a little glimpse into my life
9/15/25 (opens the original)
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The last time I wrote, I was talking about how my meds prevent me from crying but that without them I slide into self loathing. But then by the end I was talking about how much I hate myself anyway. So what do I need to do? Up my meds? Figure out how to stop being so hard on myself? How exactly does one do that?I’m really struggling right now and I don’t think anyone can tell. From the outside it looks like I’m doing well. I’m working out, I’m sewing, I’m working 2 jobs. Inside I feel like I’m c
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